Friday, February 18, 2011
♥ Just a rant.
[ Personal post - If ya'll don't like negativity & drama, don't read this. ]
Why is it always another girl? I don't understand why this always seems to happen in life. I understand there are many other girls who go through the same problem, & the adults say "It's just a part of life, and growing up", but if this is a part of life, then I don't want to be apart of it. I don't want all of my relationships & trust to go down the drain. I do not want to live knowing that the person I love the most romantically is eventually gonna' get up & walk away. That's just not fair. Sure, 'life isn't fair', but it fucking should be. I do all I can in my own life to make sure I'm living it respectively & right in what I believe & feel. I never try to hurt someone (I usually never do, even by accident), I don't do drugs, I'm not an alcoholic, I don't smoke, I'm not a whore/slut, I don't deceive others with black lies, I don't abandon my friends, I don't hang all over guys, I don't do anything particularly and noticeably "bad". So how come I can never get what I desire in the end? All I really want is a special person to share my life with me. Basically, a 'soul mate'. I don't want them to just be my friend, I want them to be my lover. I'm sure everyone, well.. almost everyone, wishes for this as well, or at least somewhere deep inside of them they do. I'm not sure if this is impossible, but it's sure seeming like it is so far.. but.. why? Can people just not control themselves? Sometimes I wish everyone or even just myself would vanish from the world with such silly impossibilities.. I guess there's still 'hope' though. Prolly' the only thing keeping this world going still (or at least humans).. I wish I could find someone that would take this fear away from my heart.. y'know, without stomping on it at the same time.
Why is it always another girl? I don't understand why this always seems to happen in life. I understand there are many other girls who go through the same problem, & the adults say "It's just a part of life, and growing up", but if this is a part of life, then I don't want to be apart of it. I don't want all of my relationships & trust to go down the drain. I do not want to live knowing that the person I love the most romantically is eventually gonna' get up & walk away. That's just not fair. Sure, 'life isn't fair', but it fucking should be. I do all I can in my own life to make sure I'm living it respectively & right in what I believe & feel. I never try to hurt someone (I usually never do, even by accident), I don't do drugs, I'm not an alcoholic, I don't smoke, I'm not a whore/slut, I don't deceive others with black lies, I don't abandon my friends, I don't hang all over guys, I don't do anything particularly and noticeably "bad". So how come I can never get what I desire in the end? All I really want is a special person to share my life with me. Basically, a 'soul mate'. I don't want them to just be my friend, I want them to be my lover. I'm sure everyone, well.. almost everyone, wishes for this as well, or at least somewhere deep inside of them they do. I'm not sure if this is impossible, but it's sure seeming like it is so far.. but.. why? Can people just not control themselves? Sometimes I wish everyone or even just myself would vanish from the world with such silly impossibilities.. I guess there's still 'hope' though. Prolly' the only thing keeping this world going still (or at least humans).. I wish I could find someone that would take this fear away from my heart.. y'know, without stomping on it at the same time.
Quote of the day:
"Bullshit is bullshit, no matter the amount of sugar sprinkled on top." - Shyzie
12:12 PM
